Friday, March 04, 2011 monochrome?
no amount of mask can make the skin better if i'm going to continue to sleep so late.sucks when your mind tells you to have the night to yourself, regardless of what time you reach home.
anyhows, before appy's battery died fully after my charger gave me a huge fright of being unable to charge up appy yesterday
i chanced upon a senior's blog.
(when i say chance, it really mean chance; i dont normally stalk people...)
i have this feeling i am the protagonist of the post, dating July 2009, although no names were mentioned.
But I remember I got a call from him before leaving for Sydney in July...
I could also be overthinking, and analysing...
i am not too keen of quoting, since google is powerful and everything can be traced.
so paraphrasing, making me the 1st person,
My decision to leave came as a shock to them, especially so at the time where they need able people. Yet he stood back and looked at the big picture, it might not be my fault after all. He felt that he failed to make us feel at home or inclusive...(and all the 自责 stuff...)
Honestly, I didnt know that he felt this way because of a decision i made. And after reading it, i felt slightly apologetic because of the way he faults himself. And i also thought i dropped quite alot of hints along the way about the level of involvement i'll give like in mid sem...
Was it a selfish decision on my part? Perhaps.
In all, it's something i dreaded a little, survived a little, made me stronger, know more people.
It's not all bad, just that i am unwilling to give so much to this...
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