i feel so bad for acting like a 3 year old kid this morning. crying in bed, refusing to go to school. i refused to tell mom what happened, i told dad when he came to my room to console me. he didnt ask anything, just patting my back as i lay face down on my pillow to cry. and i cried even harder. the pillow was stained with tears and mucus.it was part pms-ing, and part stress. i could feel myself falling into depression as thoughts, responsiblities, expectations filled my mind. i am someone who thinks too much, do too much and worry too much.
mom told me not to be so pro active in everything. i had to do 'tai-chi' sometime and pass jobs to other people. but relieving myself would mean other people would suffer, cause i know they are not free as well...i search for strenght in God, but i coulden't feel anything at that point of time. i msged kat ans ah zhi to pray for me. thanks sisters!
i havent decide whether to take the job as president.i dun feel like taking it up now. i must think of something to tell them.maybe tmr.i want to concentrate on church ministry.that's my decision after the chat with chantel on sat.thanks for everything!
i feel so bad for acting like a 3 year old kid this morning. crying in bed, refusing to go to school. i refused to tell mom what happened, i told dad when he came to my room to console me. he didnt ask anything, just patting my back as i lay face down on my pillow to cry. and i cried even harder. the pillow was stained with tears and mucus.it was part pms-ing, and part stress. i could feel myself falling into depression as thoughts, responsiblities, expectations filled my mind. i am someone who thinks too much, do too much and worry too much.
mom told me not to be so pro active in everything. i had to do 'tai-chi' sometime and pass jobs to other people. but relieving myself would mean other people would suffer, cause i know they are not free as well...i search for strenght in God, but i coulden't feel anything at that point of time. i msged kat ans ah zhi to pray for me. thanks sisters!
i havent decide whether to take the job as president.i dun feel like taking it up now. i must think of something to tell them.maybe tmr.i want to concentrate on church ministry.that's my decision after the chat with chantel on sat.thanks for everything!